My Old Friend ✉️

🖤

I’m saddened by the news. I knew right away, yet I didn’t know how to react. I still cannot believe it, though I know it’s true. You were my best friend, though I never met you. To think that almost 10 years ago we randomly met on Xbox and became such good friends over the years. I considered you a younger brother, “a son.” When you told me I was the biggest role model in your life and that you always looked up to me, I was blown away. We grew up together, which is crazy to think about. You were once some innocent little kid, and now you’re gone. We always talked about the future, a future by each other’s sides. I once told you when I get married I wanted you to be the best man, and you said the same. If your people decide to cremate, I’d love to have some of your ashes. You will still be my best man, as I once told you you’d be. I’m getting a tattoo for you soon. You mean the world to me. You were always there for me. You understood me. When things got tough, when I didn’t know what to do, when others couldn’t understand, you always did. I am so lost for words. There is a lot to say, but I am heartbroken. Your girlfriend has been messaging me, but I just can’t bring myself to talk to her. It hurts me to talk to her about you. She hurts as I do. I appreciate her a lot; she’s a good person. I will look out for her, I will look out for your family, and I will be that ghost boy I’ve always been. Watch over us brother; we miss you. I miss you. I don’t know what I’m going to do without you brother.

May you rest in peace.
Joel W. Lovell
10/18/2006 - 08/03/2025